YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE...MAYBE TWICE!
What would you do if you thought you loved a person who mistreated you? How would you deal with your thoughts? Would you feel horrified knowing that even though you hate them, your thoughts keep returning to them, fondly? Could you be angry with yourself for harboring those feelings?
Sometimes my brain betrays me, loves to torment me, no matter how much I plead or beg for it to stop. It puts past traumas on repeat in my mind, sparks painful thoughts, images, and things unpleasant. It isn't my choice, I have no control, unless I am taken by surprise into another topic. What is it like to be in full control of the mind? Somebody, anybody, please tell me, I need to know if it's at all possible for me to gain control. Please help release me from this pain; I'm afraid I am slowly losing my sanity.