must resist escapism!!!!!

well i'm back again,been researching diseases but i'm not much further ahead on the stories.Paul(my other half) went down the north Laines and got me some wicked fudge(baileys,choc orange,lemon merigue and somethin that tastes of strawberry n had cookie pieces in it),i've been being seriously ill most of yesterday evening and this afternoon have been spent barfing up.Had a burger that had the hottest chilli sauce ever n then that came back up too,think i'm off burgers for a while.just realized that its my daughter Isabella-Selene's first birthday(and my mums,they share the same birthday,deep joy!)in exactly a month so i've been looking online for good cupcake makers(i'll make the big birthday cake but the cupcakes can come from a bakery,i'm gonna be sooooooo stressed n busy) cos i gotta sample before doing the birthday order.had zombie dreams again last night,me with bella on my back fighting off a swarm of the fuckers with a samurai sword,bella kept giggling and saying "mummum kill zeds".my eleven month old daughter knows what zombies are,she even makes zed noises when i playnibble her,she stood properly yesterday,i'm so proud of her.If zeds started coming out of the ground(the already dead coming back to life)her stilborn older twin sisters would come out of the ground at tooting, i have dreams about that sometimes and those are the dreams that make me upset,i try to put their loss behind me but their memory just wont die,its a zombie memory! I have a weird fear of z-day coming when i'm pregnant cos my interest with zeds started when i was carrying bella(so very many zombie dreams).once again stressing over xmas,but heres something funny to distract...

"Deaders Roasting on an Open Fire

Zombies Ripping off your nose

Yuletide moans being sung by zeds in a chior

and getting eaten by the undead so-and-so's"

LOL! dont ask me why but that just popped into my head.

good news is my sky tv is getting installed in the morning so i can watch the living dead.and its only 3 weeks til my nan comes over from texas!yay!!!!!!!

bella is up from her nap n demaning "num num" so i gots to go! be back later

Zoe